My Own Dark Shadow
How do you pray
when your heart is breaking?
How do you cry
when you're tired of trying?
No tears cometh; just wet eyes only.
How do you release
the pressure building up inside?
What if I scream?
What if I simply cried?
Will the tears I shed calm the fears I dread?
Fears that grip my heart so tightly,
hesitant at the slightest movement,
too far left or too far right.
Indecision—am I wrong or right?
If I seek out the dim light,
a representation of my shadowy life,
will I find myself in the night?
What if I stumble and fall?
Will the thundering sound be heard abroad?
Will anyone hear me if I call?
Will compassion show its face after all?
These things I know for sure:
My own dark shadow will forever follow,
and life itself is short and fragile,
forever shattered by
the broken glass that is scattered.
Poem by: Qbenja
I Love You Again Today
Remembering the strength of your embrace
It brings a bittersweet smile to my face
Oh how I wish you were here to hear me say
I love you again today
The world was perfectly round with you in my life
No matter which way the dice rolled you stood by my side
Now that you are gone, life's edges become octagonal,
Uneven and slightly off-track
I wonder if my universe will ever again stand upright
My world was brighter when you were here,
Now your absence brings days that are dim and drear
My bearings are lost, and confusion has grown
In the simplest of times, I feel utterly alone
To admit the stark truth, without you, I’m overthrown
Remembering the strength of your embrace
Is what I depend on to get through another day
Oh, how I long for you to be here to hear me say
I love you again today
Perhaps I'm wrong, or maybe it's selfish to say
I wish God had chosen another to take your place
Poem Written By: QBenja
"Once again, I find myself missing you more today than the day before."
Your Smiling Face
If I had a dime for every time you displayed your smile,
The value would be far greater than the dollars given for the
each time you cried.
Today, I would trade all the riches in the world to see you smile.
That lovely smile that offset the sparkle in your eyes.
That lovely smile that adorned your beautiful face
and complemented the wisdom beyond your age.
That lovely smile that encouraged so many others along the way.
You, my love, were a woman of integrity and grace.
My heart never stops longing to caress your beautiful face.
If only I could go back to that moment in a day.
I would tell you again that I love you before God takes you away.
Maybe then, my heavy heart would beat at a normal pace.
And the tears I cry would flow less each day
And the tracks upon my face will begin to fade.
And on days like today, joy would replace the pain I taste.
Your smiling face is something I miss every day, especially today,
On this anniversary date, God carried you home to heaven's place.
Poem written and published by: Qbenja
My sister, my mom, and my friend - RIHP til we meet again.
If I had the chance today. I would gladly say,
I love you more today than yesterday.💖
“Vapor of Memories”
My Mother’s presence is forever with me, both day and night.
Remembering her gorgeous smile is comforting and seems to make all things right.
A Mother’s love doesn’t fade with the going and coming of years.
Even though she may no longer physically be here.
A Mother’s hand of love will continue to guide us throughout our years.
Each time, I recall a spoken word of wisdom.
A small act of kindness or a stern discipline.
It is at that time that I will remember.
Oh, how precious the vapors of memories are.
That ensures her presence is forever with me.
They say she was legendary for her hats, smile, and sassy style.
I remember her most for her faith in God and steadfast ways.
Throughout her 93 years of Good Days.
Sometimes, I would see the sadness on her face as age took its place.
Yet there was comfort in knowing.
That she made her request to God to prepare the way.
Mom, I miss you and will love you forever and always.
Rest In Peace (RIP) as God takes your loving spirit away.
You will have a brand new home now in Heaven's Place.
Oh, how precious the vapors of memories are.
That ensures her presence is forever with me.
Poem Written by: Qbenja
"RIP" A Gardenia for Mom. Symbolizes purity and gentleness. Image Author - Unknown
ANGRY AT ME
In sad times like these when that special someone must leave,
we all grieve differently. Remember that it’s okay to grieve,
as it sets us free as we heal and find some solace in peace.
So, if you must, say it out loud, scream, if need be, but release
the paralyzing anger and be free.
I am........
Angry at me that I failed to relate to the pain that went so deep.
Angry at me that my compassion wasn’t greater than your need.
Angry at me for letting you leave; angry at you for leaving me.
Angry at me for the words I did not speak.
Angry at me for running away in your time of need.
Angry at me for not sharing all of me.
Angry at me for closing blind eyes when I should have seen.
Angry at me for not being a better friend.
Angry at the emptiness inside and the part of me that died.
Angry that I still miss your smile.
Angry for not saying goodbye.
Angry at the memories both bitter and sweet.
Anger is temporary and bittersweet ,
I am grateful for your love and the time God allotted me.
Death has taught us to take hold of life's victories,
treasure the little things, and embrace the sweet memories.
“RIP” Friend Throughout Eternity!
Poem Written by: Qbenja
"In sorrow we grieve and we question if the pain will ever leave." Image Author -Unknown
Memories I Leave
You may have started your day with a heavy heart and falling tears.
But I promise, by the end of the day, there will be a smile on your face.
I know you will miss me terribly as I had to leave so suddenly.
Please try not to worry, I am free and at peace.
Heaven is my home now; it is a better place for me.
My heavenly father went to prepare a place for me.
Today is my turn to stand in line and wait for my chosen seat.
With a smile, I will sit here patiently to watch my family and friends
celebrate as my final moments here on earth take place.
In celebrating my living, you will share tall tales and stories in remembrance.
Some will be funny, some sad, and others just plain old bad.
I promise you will cry and laugh, but through it all,
you will find love and support among family and friends
who will share memories that will last till time ends.
I want you to know that it's okay to laugh amidst your tears, laugh out loud,
so heaven may hear, and if you listen closely, you will hear my laughter joining in.
At the mention of my name, you may shed a tear today,
tomorrow, and throughout the years.
But always remember you will have me here,💖
in your hearts, where I've always been from the very start.
In your quiet moments alone, you will call my name simply out of grief and pain,
and I will still answer the same. Believe that I am with you even more than before
as vivid memories of my gentle spirit flow through each open door.
So please, take a moment to feel the warmth of my embrace as I reach down
to comfort you from this heavenly place.
Each of you has gently touched my life in a special way,
know that you are loved and appreciated beyond words expressed here today.
Poem Written by: Qbenja
The Good News: Death is not final because in both life and death, we have God: Rom14:7 Image Unknown
Angel Wings
Farewell Tribute To A Friend
My Dearest Friend, God has gifted you Angel Wings.
We knew the moment you passed, as we heard the voices of heaven sing.
It's your time to lead the heavenly choir in songs of praise and music of God's choice.
Angel Wings, be free, for they are now yours throughout eternity.
Fly high above the sky and clouds.
Sashay with grace as you enter heaven's open door.
Rest now in God's loving arms forevermore.
Many may say that God has taken you away too soon.
Our God knows the reason he chose this spring season.
You were a lovely flower meant to be part of his daily bouquet, brightening his day.
Your departure may feel surreal, but time will heal.
We will cherish the gift of your singing each day and take heed of the motherly
wisdom you shared along the way.
There are many things I will miss about you. Your beautiful smile which perfectly
matched your ladylike style. Your shy sense of humor, both funny and sweet,
brought me joy and kept me laughing for weeks.
I will miss you, my friend. But this is not where the road ends,
we shall meet again in a heavenly place, our reward for enduring this Christian race.
Your fragrance of love will always be near, even amidst our tears.
Enjoy your new Angel Wings, my friend. Take them out for a spin now and then,
and don't forget to drop by to comfort family and friends.
I will miss you, my buddy, I will miss you, my friend.
Goodbye for now until we meet again. Your Forever Friend.
Poem Written by: Qbenja
This Poem is In Loving Memory of a Beautiful Friend... E.M. "RIP" Image Author-Unknown
One early morning day, the spirit of greatness left this earthly place. Traveled to heaven to fulfill its designated space. “RIP Sir" November 16, 2022
--QBenjamin--